My sleep times have been drastically altered. I sleep less at home and more in camp now o.o
Passing out of course party at my place. Need to buy BBQ stuff and whatnots.
Life's really dry and dull now. Maybe it'll be funner when I'm posted.
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Bleh.
11:51 PM
Nothing new, same old same old.
Scissors Sisters is addictive.
Updated my Facebook profile today.
I think I should give my blog a complete revamp. I miss my Cloud blogskin :/
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, January 28, 2008
I still remember
7:56 PM
I guess you'll always be the silly girl I know.
Moving on isn't about forgetting. Moving on is about remembering, and changing.
I still have 3 photo frames sitted on the table by my bedside. I can't bear to remove them or throw them away, because they hold good memories. I still have a pig paper bag hand puppet in my drawer. I haven't played with it in ages, but looking at it makes me smile.
I respected your decision to kick me out of sight, out of mind. But you still come back to check my blog anyway. Ironic, isn't it?
14 more months to go. I've moved on I guess. I just haven't let go.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Another Weekend
10:26 PM
It feels different already.
Went out on Saturday to meet some people on IRC. Helped with upgrading/unbricking and otherwise fixing PSPs. All guys, but heck, they're really nice people.
I felt very... accomplished that day.
Sunday, wakeboarding with Adam, one of my mum's client's son, Jesh, Brandon, my bros and Unclie William. My shoulder and forearms ache like fuck now. I think no MvsC tomorrow :/
Bought 2 t-shirts at a UGP store at Raffles Marina (place where we boarded); chick there was kinda cute :P
Had Japanese dinner with the gang at Miyabi.
This weekend was totally different. It felt really really good.
Yes, change is good.
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
11:57 AM
You make it sound like I wasn't dependent on you either.
I'm sorry about last night. I promise it'll be the last time.
lone wolf syndrome.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Goddamn
7:52 PM
I hate it when people exploit me just because my parents are wealthy.
I hate it when my parents exploit me just because I'm their son.
I really hate being me. Maybe it's because I'm always the nice guy, always easy to push around, always the one to say yes to any request.
Maybe that's why you left me.
Fuck all this, I'm done. This goddamn world doesn't deserve a nice guy.
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
7:51 PM
It's confirmed. I'm an Instructor.
Looks like I'll be spending the rest of my NS life at STC.
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
10:22 PM
Where the fuck is my motivation in life?
Bah.
Maybe the pace of MSET is suitable for my mood now. In fact, I think it's perfect. 12 days will be fast though. Wonder where I'm headed next.
Yeah, it's really true, it's like I'm sleepwalking through my life now.
MoS private room party in May, those interested email/IM/call/PM me on Friendster, I'll see how many I can accommodate.
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, January 21, 2008
loser loser pants on fire.
7:53 PM
If you can't win, don't play.
Someone tried to pick a fight with me in camp today. Fucking retard.
Long story short:
Sat down to play Marvel vs Capcom, used Ryu and Zangief for fun. Someone comes along to challenge. I lose.
In fact I lose 5 times in a row and run out of coins. Jesh comes and passes me a coin. I kept quiet throughout all the rounds although I was clearly agitated that I kept losing. I analyzed his attack patterns (he's projectile kiddy btw, Megaman and Cap Com user) and realised he doesn't learn. He's fixed. He can only play in one way and nothing more.
I proceed to beat the shit out the guy with just Strider most of the time for 9 consecutive rounds. I lose eventually on the 10th game. I tell Jesh that my Light Punch is a little faulty and doesn't always work, so I can't use Spidey to the maximum potential. Opponent makes a snide remark that it doesn't matter since I'm using Easy Mode (note that I use LP to make almost ALL attacks with Spidey).
One more token just to shut him up, I beat the guy. He stands up and taps me on the shoulder "Bye, noob."
I almost fell out of my chair laughing. Bye noob? Wtf? You lost to me and I'm a noob. Someone who cannot anaylse, who cannot adapt, who uses projectiles as a main form of offense, who doesn't Air Combo and uses Manual, who depends mainly on Colossus + Captain Storm to win, called me a noob. Joke of the year. It's ok, just stay focused and play. He comes bye again, points to the screen below my life bar where it says "Easy Mode".
"Bye Easy Mode noob."
At this point, I'm getting very pissed. If I can shut up and lose for 5 rounds, why can't you take a beating? I stand up and tell him as he walks away, "The way you use Manual, you're better off using Easy any way."
And he comes back and asks me whether I wanna fight.
Jesh and Jack come over from behind to back me up. He looks at our passes.
"STC big meh?"
I just give him the most wicked smile he has probably ever seen.
"Future instructor," Jeshua mutters. (I'm not sure, but many people have been dropping me hints anyway)
He eventually backs down and walks away.
Moral of the story: If you can't win, don't play. And FFS, don't be a sore loser.
NOTE: Easy Mode has it's benefits and disbenefits. It's easier to do combos (the regular LP MP HP or LK MK HK combo can be done by tapping LP or LK repeatedly), it's easier to do moves (double tapping the M and H buttons will execute a QCB or QCF + M or H move) and easier to do Specials (MP + HP or MK +HK, note you are limited to 2 specials in Easy in this manner, although you can still use the QCB of QCF specials for characters that have more than 2 Specials with manual inputs still).
It is however, harder to air combo, harder to pull off some specials (QCF especially, i.e. Ultimate Web Throw, Gamma Quake) and impossible to execute 2 of the same key consecutively in a combo (e.g. LP followed by LP or MP followed by MP).
Easy Mode is not for noobs. Easy and Manual is like using an Iron and Wood for driving in golf. It's a choice and preference. If you lose with your choice, don't whine about the other being "easier to use".
Yes, I'm a gaming freak.
I blame my parents only giving me one dollar for forty cent arcade machines back when I was 10 or 11. I had to learn how to maximise my play time, hence fighting games. Watching a 11 year old kick the butt of 17 players older than him on Tekken 2 is probably something you will never forget.
I guess my past shapes me alot. Sigh.
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
New Blogskin
6:36 PM
Introducing, Terry Bogard. My best character in almost every edition of KOF. He is also known as the Legendary Hungry Wolf; invincible in almost every aspect.
Yes, change is good.
A little piece by Jerry C.
Gah, I just realised I'll be going shopping for new year clothes alone. Fux.
lone wolf syndrome.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Day out
11:44 PM
Bought the puma leather jacket at 520 :D
Can't believe I camwhored with it :X
Ate yuki and yaki with her. Had some funny ice cream pancake thingy, should have pics sometime later.
After that... well.
I don't know what to make of it really. You're the one that ended it. But when I tell you I'm getting over it, it's not ok. I already asked you to get back together with me 3 times. I don't think I'll ask again. If you really love me, love me.
I'll know. I might dare again.
EDIT: So it's over, huh? Just like that.
Enough to feel sad that I'm giving up, but not enough to get back together. I guess you finally know how I feel.
lone wolf syndrome.
10:44 AM
IRC, the festering pit of humanity. 'Nuff said I believe.
What Bryan Means
You are full of energy. You are spirited and boisterous. You are bold and daring. You are willing to do some pretty outrageous things. Your high energy sometimes gets you in trouble. You can have a pretty bad temper at times.
You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.
You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
That's actually eeriely very, very accurate. I guess it's only missing the part where I can be emo and quiet at times.
I don't know why, recently, I've felt the urge to just say everything here. Just let whoever visits this little deserted space on the internet see what I have to say, what I really think. So many things, so little time. I guess I'm turning into a hypocrite as well. Going out with her again today. Cloverfield seems like a bad choice of movie, luckily we didn't get tickets yet.
Meh, ja matta. New post later.
lone wolf syndrome.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Puma leather jacket
7:41 PM
699.
Still considering. Jesh said there are cheaper alternatives.
Feel the pinch a little after MoS yesterday. Joel owes me money and I have no idea how to get it from him. Probably ask him to transfer to my account or something.
Now I know why they like Chivas.
Jesh got into shit. Women trouble. GO PASTOR'S SON!
Lmao. I have no idea was I was so quiet and emo the whole time last night. I guess that's the way I am. Only started dancing towards the end when the kick from the alcohol came in. Semi-sehhed. Sigh... I guess I'm not a clubbing person.
The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.
lone wolf syndrome.
4:53 PM
I give up.
I don't think I can ever change.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
How I wish
11:46 PM
I've been going through the motions Watching things pass me by Sleep-walking through my life But you came along and shook my world up No longer scared to try, my eyes are open wide
And I never felt like this before I know I'm finally awake, finally awake 'Cause you're just what I've been waiting for I know I'm finally awake, finally awake
'Cause it used to feel like I was dreaming So hard for me to see what's real and make believe But everything is now in focus I've finally broken through, I owe it all to you
And I never felt like this before I know I'm finally awake, finally awake 'Cause you're just what I've been waiting for I know I'm finally awake, finally awake
I've missed enough, I've got some catching up to do And if it's not too much, I'd like to do it all with you I've missed enough, I've got some catching up to do And if it's not too much, I'd like to do it all with you
And I never felt like this before I know I'm finally awake, finally awake 'Cause you're just what I've been waiting for I know I'm finally awake, finally awake
I've missed enough, I've got some catching up to do (I'm finally awake) And if it's not too much, I'd like to do it all with you
lone wolf syndrome.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
8:54 PM
I sometimes wonder why I continue updating. Nobody reads this anyway.
It sucks having a handphone and no one to talk to or sms.
I can't talk to anyone, I don't really have any true friends. I don't like to weigh others down with my issues; I hate telling people how I really feel. I realised I'm a walking paradox sometimes. I can be straightforward, yet reserved at the same time.
Sometimes, I think, it's because people around me always shared how they felt, came to me for advice, or just spilled their stories out to me. Because of that, I realised it felt crappy. Knowing something, yet unable to do anything about it and more often than not, having to keep it secret. I didn't benefit in any way at all and I could never tell them about stuff the same way they tell me.
I'm just like that.
Tuesday night, I overheard them talking about Joel's love issues. It made me realise that more often than not, one party is willing to do alot, and the other party just never appreciates anything. Somehow, it made me feel better in a way. I don't know why.
They were talking about him being an angel around her, when he was really a devil inside. Sometimes, I think even angels can be corrupted, given the right amount of disappointment. I feel like a fallen angel right now, almost halfway to converting to a demon, yet stubbornly holding on to what's left of me. "Because that's the way I am" I tell myself. Maybe I need to change. I can't go on like this. I'm done being the nice guy for once.
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
12:36 PM
So I sacrificed so much, just to have the next person you get together with benefit from everything I've done? Where's the justice in that?
Screw it. It's always like that anyway, I shouldn't be surprised.
Denise, Agnes, you. You've proven to me more than ever how alone I really am. Thanks. I guess I won't try anything stupid like falling in love again.
It's New Year's and I have "homework" to do and I'm booking in tonight.
