Monday, March 31, 2008
Remember the important things...
11:30 PM
Huh.
I guess all this changing bullshit made me forget the bottom line.
It's me I want to be and nobody else. So what if I'm not perfect? I don't have to improve myself for anyone's sake. Accept me or screw off.
Why should I accept others when they can't accept me?
lone wolf syndrome.
Legacy
9:08 PM
Would anyone be willing to be the proof you existed if you disappeared one day?
Would anyone be willing to hold on and believe if you went away?
Would there be a soul who would wait forever, for you to show, and never doubt you; accept you as a whole?
Would you be willing to give up, everything you cared about, just to fight for something dear?
Is there anything in the world you can hold on to; anything, more important than you?
Do your ideals and your honor, mean much more, than whatever you have now?
Do you remember, what's it like, to be you, and not someone else?
Would you be the proof I existed? Would you kindly please? Because I'm not sure, when I'll disappear, but I need to set my mind at ease.
I never thought a video game could get me thinking about so much.
It sounds stupid. A poem inspired by the death of a fictional character. But... it's meaningful to me. And that's all that matters.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Zack Fair
10:28 PM
Because... everyone has to have reason...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXw5hlJQbWA
lone wolf syndrome.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
8:35 PM
I haven't updated in a while.
Been busy at work, like very very busy. And haven't really had anything to blog about anyway.
My life's pretty uninteresting as of now. It's mostly exercises and ops.
And... yeah.
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, March 10, 2008
11:30 PM
Gone camping till Friday! May be uncontactable at times :x
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
8:57 PM
I used to believe in many things.
Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, meritocracy, God.
I wonder where all that faith went? Love is almost about to go on the list as well, I suppose.
They say what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. But at what price? Was it worth it?
Is innocence a justifiable price to pay for knowledge? If I had known earlier, I'd rather be in ignorant bliss than informed torment.
Stupid Eve, who asked you to eat the damn apple? :(
lone wolf syndrome.
Happy Birthday Wei Long :P
1:40 PM
Pubbing yesterday to celebrate Wei Long's 20th.
We got smashed and he got totally wasted. Was puking over the floor and couldn't walk without assistance after we went around tahr-ing him and let him have a Flaming Lambo and a shot. :x
Don't blame me though, his other friends were the ones who wanted him drunk.
And DAMN IndoChine is expensive. 220 for a Chivas at a pub? Wtf man? :/
lone wolf syndrome.
Friday, March 07, 2008
8:50 PM
She got together with someone. That was probably why she's been ignoring me.
But it just kinda pisses me off that she had to lie and tell me that she's been busy with stuff.
Bah, not worth my time. Next better player please.
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
7:47 PM
She replied.
But it's gotten me thinking about some things.
We're totally different people, lead totally different lifestyles. I don't think we're suitable at all. It's just a crush and nothing more, I suppose. Yes, I do like her a little, but the attraction is a little superficial.
And lastly, I can't imagine myself in a relationship with her.
Maybe I should just get done with Army before I start thinking about stuff like this.
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, March 03, 2008
9:04 PM
She's been uncontactable for more than 24 hours!!!
:/ Just feel kinda dan xin. But I heard from her godbro that she was at home and left home before I got online. Guess she's alright then.
Maybe she's avoiding me >.> Damn, cold shoulder rejectment? Maybe. Guess I'll know sooner or later.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Du lan
4:03 PM
Today is a du lan day for me.
Typed out a post yesterday and it's apparently gone now.
Was gonna go for a soccer game, when it got called off. Wore my contacts and packed my bag already.
GAH, WHY SO SUAY? D:
lone wolf syndrome.
