Sunday, August 17, 2008
11:34 PM
Sometimes I feel afraid. It may be because of the way my previous girlfriend just let me go.
It wasn't another person, it wasn't me pissing her off; no argument, no fights; just a "I'm not happy anymore" and that was that.
Yeah, I do admit. I get insecure at times because of that memory. The memory that something you hold dear can just choose to walk away from you for apparently no reason at all.
I would rather we had a huge fight and broke up. At least there would be a reason. It would be easier to process and accept. Now that memory of those words and the way you broke the news to me still remain in my mind. I can't say that I'll try not to let it affect this relationship, because I suppose in a way it already has.
I don't like it when I try to show affection for you and you turn me down. I can understand if you're not comfortable if there are people watching, but you don't seem to like it when no one's around either. It reminds me of the last 3 months of being together with my ex. I just accepted whatever she didn't want, thinking it was probably just her being cranky. Accepting my affection is sometimes a form of assurance to me. It tells me that you enjoy my adoration and love. That you don't mind what other people think of whatever we're doing. That the rest of the world becomes oblivious to you when you're with me.
Maybe I'm expecting too much. But, then again, so far that's the way it's been when I'm in a relationship with someone; they don't mind. Maybe I shouldn't expect you to be the same as everyone else.
lone wolf syndrome.
1:21 PM
I'm really worried about you after hearing what you told me yesterday. You're already slim and beautiful, I can't see why you'd want to lose another 5kg.
It really makes me suspect you have an eating disorder of sorts :(
Please, dear. Find some contentment in your own body image. I know everyone wants to be attractive and look better and better, but you're already there, why lose more weight?
I'm afraid you'll end up malnourished and looking like Calista Flockheart... Seriously, I believe your current weight is absolutely perfect. A little meat on a woman makes her more desirable than a walking skeleton :)
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, August 02, 2008
12:10 PM
Went to watch Songs of the Sea on Thursday :)
Was pretty good, much better than the old musical fountain, but in a sense, the same thing. Lasers, fire spouts, water spouts, ect. The only "new" thing was the pyrotechnics display at the end of the show :O
When someone cares about you, they don't need to express it to you explicitly. You can feel it, especially if it comes from the heart. Thanks, dear :)
lone wolf syndrome.
