Wednesday, May 19, 2010
1:25 AM
Is it that empty feeling?Do you feel cold inside?
Do you feel hot in spite?
Do you think it's legendary?
Do you think everything's gonna be alright?
So now you're waiting out there
For that one way ride
Out of the somewhere
Waiting to hold inside
Waiting to let go,
To let go of it and come out right.
To be faded
Out of this blinding light
And jaded
And made anew tonight.
Do I feel empty?
Do I feel cold inside?
Am I jaded?
What am I trying to fight?
What is this feeling; what is this blinding light?
So now you're waiting out there
For that one way ride
Out of the somewhere
Waiting to hold inside
Waiting to let go,
To let go of it and come out right.
To be faded
Out of this blinding light
And jaded
And forgiven tonight.
Cos it's never the same; whereever we go,
It's never the same; this pay per view show
We call... life.
It's changing, changed me by
All of these passing moments
All of the pain I hold inside.
So now you're waiting out there
For that one way ride
Out of the nowhere
Out of this empty lie
Waiting to shout out,
Shout out the truth you've lied.
To be faded
Into this blinding light
And brought there,
And renew your faith tonight.
No working title.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
11:10 PM
Hm.
This place really houses a part of me I don't show people normally.
I've thought of changing blog address numerous times but when I read my previous entries, I can't bear to.
I don't want all this to be lost somewhere. The feelings, the emotions, the memories here.
This is me.
This is really who I am.
lone wolf syndrome.
10:50 PM
Sometimes I wonder if I'm not disillusioned.
I wonder if that's really all there is to the world.
Maybe that's just sad, sad reality and I'm just an idealist trying to lie to himself.
Because the nice guys always end up last. Always.
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
11:13 AM
The greatest crime to humanity is to look at someone and think to yourself: "
That person is just like everyone else."
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, May 10, 2010
10:59 PM
I know I know.
Staying up late and not going to sleep is another sign.
No, not not going to sleep. Not wanting to sleep is the sign.
This is why I don't watch dramas. They fire up all the wrong gears, make me relive some bad memories.
I really really hate trying hard.
You know why? Because I hate giving it my all and being disappointed.
I'd rather do nothing and have an expected result.
Jaded. You've got your mama's style but you're yesterday's child to me.
lone wolf syndrome.
10:38 PM
Sigh.
Back to the grind.
Started looking for work, interview tomorrow.
Wonder what should I wear :/
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
1:37 AM
Hello, you.
I've been neglecting you recently.
No more daily posts.
No more pennies for your thoughts.
No more insights into how I'm doing.
But the ironic thing is that.
When I neglect you, it means I'm ok.
It means I'm doing fine.
When I come here to post, it mostly means something bad happened.
Or something isn't right.
Moreso than ever, since I'm the type of person who likes to keep things to myself.
I like to be "convenient" to people.
All the thrills without the frills.
Not because I'm afraid they won't like me, God, no.
But because I hope they're the same way round.
Sad? Well, that's how it is.
I don't bother you; you don't bother me.
I only come here when it's seething.
When the bottlecap's about to burst and I can't hold it down.
Today, not so much.
More because I came to the realisation that I am a loner.
A lone wolf through and through.
But hey, guess what wikipedia has to say?
lone wolves are usually stronger, more aggressive and far more dangerous than the average wolf that is a member of a pack.
Oh and this too.
Sometimes, a lone wolf will find another lone wolf of the opposite sex, and the two will start a new pack.
I figure maybe I've been looking for the wrong type of person all along.
Perhaps this is what Paul Wan meant by "it takes someone equally empty to make one feel whole again".
So I'll just wait for that other lone wolf to come along.
lone wolf syndrome.
