Sunday, July 28, 2013
4:02 AM
Everything has changed.
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
9:11 PM
As I'm having dinner and browsing Facebook, I chanced upon a quote by Stephen Hawking a friend posted.
I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road.
This was very interesting to me because I am a believer in both fate and karma which seem to be irreconcilable concepts (assuming you do not subscribe to the Buddhist explanation for it; I do not believe in reincarnation therefore the explanation presented is not applicable to my belief system).
However, reading it and eating the most awesome salmon quiche ever gave me an epiphany. Karma and fate are actually reconciliable concepts.
"How?" you ask. It's quite simple actually. Fate determines the events in your life. Certain milestones like for example, a car accident, or a meeting with your soul mate, or onset of a terminal illness/rare degenerative disease. Well, I think you get the picture. That's fate. Important, huge things that happen. The Holocaust, 9/11, The Asia Pacific Tsunami - they will happen. Karma can't avoid those things. Instead, karma determines the outcome. Karma is what decides whether you survive the accident or whether you become a paraplegic or die. Karma is what decides if you and your soul mate live happily ever after or for some reason or another cannot stay together. Karma decides if you find a miraculous cure or not.
Karma decides the results. Fate decides the events - the unavoidable happenings that will happen in your life. Karma means that what you do has the ability to mitigate the consequences of the things that happen. And it makes sense. Look at the paraplegics, look at the amazing disabled athletes, look at the people who have endured bullying and turned it into poetry, look at the people who have beaten cancer, look at the people who have unfortunate things happen to them but are still able to get by because of their indeflatable attitude and perseverance. These things definitely did not happen to them because they deserved it. But rather happened just because they happened.
But - how they approached the issue after it happened, how they responded to it; with the same optimism and positivity that they approached every issue with, with the same altruistic mindset - is what made them what they are today. Karma works when you work it. It works when you have done good all your life and when the shit hits the ceiling, it pulls out from a reserve tank to help you go that last mile to the gas station.
Karma is what you do. Fate is what you cannot change.
lone wolf syndrome.
7:11 PM
People will like you for all different reasons. Be sure they are liking you for the reasons you want them to like you for.
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
10:50 PM
The irony is that the one day you become perfect, is the one day you lose all hope.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
11:46 PM
I think that's it's important to surround yourself with fake, superficial people at times too.
So you learn to appreciate the ones who are genuine.
lone wolf syndrome.
12:09 AM
This is precisely what I'm talking about.
lone wolf syndrome.
Friday, July 19, 2013
9:08 PM
I guess what I wanted to say is this:
Is it really possible to find meaning in a meaningless world?
I mean, I look at other people and I've realised they've given up. Succumbed. Whole heartedly accepted that this world is FUBAR and live up to - hell, even worship - its fucked up values.
When there are people like that, does it even make sense to try and find a meaningful existence? Because one's meaningful existence must be based upon other's meaningful existences.
If we have a bunch of people who literally don't care about finding this meaningful existence either because they are too embedded in the system to see out of it, or are blinded by it, doesn't that make the meaningful existence... less meaningful?
Is it worthwhile? Hell, I don't know any more.
lone wolf syndrome.
Sunday, July 14, 2013
9:58 PM
Something's been bothering me.
I'm not sure what. Maybe it'll go away when I start work.
I just feel like the endgame to life is pretty much like an MMO.
It's satisfaction is directly relative to the circumstances other people, and partially, that makes it very... meaningless.
It's hard to explain. Maybe I've thought so much about this that it is not making sense any more.
Maybe I've not thought about it enough to put it into words.
Experience has taught me it's most likely the latter.
But this time, I do hope it's my own imagination.
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, July 06, 2013
Now
6:40 PM
Life is so strange sometimes but I realised that it boils down to basically a few things:
1. Do what you want and what makes you happy.
2. There will be people who will be offended by what you do and people who won't.
3. Let people come and go into your life naturally, there is no point on holding onto someone who doesn't want to stay.
4. Sometimes, the best things happen unexpectedly, so don't be so busy expecting something to happen and missing out the things that come as serendipity.
5. Relationships are the most important thing. Treasure the right ones and let go of the ones that you cannot keep.
6. Don't strive to have good things happen to you. Life doesn't work that way. Just strive to be a good person and the good things will come naturally.
So yeah. A lot has been going on in all aspects of my life recently and I just feel so lucky. It feels like everything I've done has paid off somehow. Being genuine and not pretentious and caring as much for everyone and not just specific people. I would say that for the first time in a long long while, I am truly, genuinely happy.
I've also come to realise one thing. It's not important to just find a happy people. It's important to find people who are happy in spite of their circumstances. The people who have had happiness presented to them; those who have never understood sadness or despair or anger or disappointment - these are not the truly happy people. The
happy people are those who are happy in spite of everything they have gone through. The happy people are those who have realised what are the important things in life and can be happy with what they have.
If you cannot appreciate what you have now, how can you expect to ever be happy?
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, July 03, 2013
4:15 PM
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, July 01, 2013
2:29 AM
Sometimes I wish I had a confidante.
lone wolf syndrome.
