Thursday, October 24, 2013
6:13 PM
Thank you Mr Butcher. Thank you for everything.
I will never, ever forget you.
lone wolf syndrome.
12:45 AM
I don't cry because no one would catch me even if I did.
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
10:55 PM
Someone close to me left this world.
I need someone to talk to now.
lone wolf syndrome.
Friday, October 18, 2013
6:11 PM
I don't feel the same things that I used to any more.
Some people call it growing up. I call it dying a little more every day.
lone wolf syndrome.
Tuesday, October 08, 2013
11:09 PM
What turns me off about pick up artists and their techniques is not the methods they use to pick up girls.
It's the way girls fall for it. The realization that will hit you if you were to score that night that people really are easily manipulatable and shallow. That we cannot rise above our human nature.
I understand the techniques, they're easy to be honest. As a student of human behaviour I already knew some of these tricks before I found out they had been appropriated and commercialised into this package sold by marketing experts everywhere as "date advice". The painful truth is that it isn't date advice. It's manipulation. It's not so much different from what douchebags do, except the added advantage is that both parties go in eyes open and no one gets hurt (ideally).
But I'd never use them, not because I think it's stooping low (I do, but that's not the reason), but rather because I know that even after the "pick up" is successful and I'm lying in bed, I will feel emptier inside than I did before I started.
I can. I just choose not to because it doesn't fulfil what I'm trying to obtain.
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, October 07, 2013
11:53 PM
People ask me why am I afraid. The truth is, I'm not afraid. I'm terrified. You see, every time I love someone, I don't just put in effort and time into them. I put in emotions; I pour a bit of myself into them.
I'm not afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of not being able to love that someone. Because once I've poured a bit of myself into you, I can't take it back. You can keep it, or throw it away. And every time you don't allow me to love you you throw away a bit of me. I'm literally giving you bits of myself but you don't value it. It doesn't cost you anything to keep it but you'd rather throw it away. Why?
I'm not afraid of rejection. I'm afraid of giving away too much of myself that I may once day no longer have the capacity to give anymore; how can I give away part of myself when I no longer have sufficient? I'm not afraid of being hurt - I'm afraid of never being able to love again. I'm afraid that one day I will meet you and I won't be able to love you.
And I can't expect you to even comprehend how it feels, nor would I wish it upon you to know how it feels.I can only hope that whatever happens, you'll always let me love you. Even if you don't love me anymore.
lone wolf syndrome.
11:02 PM
It's times like this that I can see that thin line between me and someone who isn't really me.
lone wolf syndrome.
10:57 PM
I have no idea why tonight feels so heavy hearted.
I'll just blame it on the lack of sleep as usual.
lone wolf syndrome.
Yes, this is to you.
10:24 PM
Why?
You tell me.
lone wolf syndrome.
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
6:01 PM
At the end of the day, money talks
To the people who can't hear the whispers of life.
lone wolf syndrome.
