Monday, April 21, 2014
11:06 PM
Why is it every time I make a decision, it's like heaven sends a sign that says "Re-think this"?
Okay, fine. I'll play Mr. Nice Guy for a while longer. But you can't keep throwing me under the bus and telling me it's worth it, God. If you're asking me to have faith, you should know how long I've believed I was doing the right thing.
lone wolf syndrome.
2:14 PM
I've decided. Time to be someone else.
lone wolf syndrome.
Monday, April 14, 2014
10:36 PM
Trust your intuition.
I would you know, but my intuition never tells me good things.
lone wolf syndrome.
Saturday, April 12, 2014
5:39 PM
I can't remember the last time I've felt this way. It's like I just wanna fall asleep forever and dream. Dream happy dreams.
I don't want to think, I don't want to have a moment'a respite to be greeted by the fucked up reality of my self awareness.
I think I'm going to start taking sleep supplements regularly because I cannot deal with the way I feel when I lie alone in my bed at night. Trust me, if pills were readily available I'd be popping them every night.
I don't feel alive anymore. It's like the last if whatever it was that was inside me died. And I can't finish writing what I wanted because how can I ever teach people about happiness when I don't feel that way myself?
I wrote about being done, about being stronger but it seems that I cannot be strong the way I want to anymore.
Time's really finally running out... I hope you find this soon. I'm afraid the person I am now may have already died if you're too late...
lone wolf syndrome.
2:25 AM
Never forget that feeling of fear, of desolation. It is what changes you, it is what makes you stronger.
Remember and learn.
lone wolf syndrome.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
3:39 PM
Sorry guys. You've went and done it. I'm done, I quit.
lone wolf syndrome.
12:32 AM
I'm going to need a lot this time.
Have to dig down deep to cone out stronger.
Wish me luck.
lone wolf syndrome.
